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For three years I was blind and ignorant.
I was selfish. I was angry. I was pathetic. I was revolting.
I comforted myself with my own pity.
"oh woe is me, this wretched being of self disgust breathes yet again on this day"
My scars were created by me for me. They were my safety blanket. I knew of nothing else besides my own detestable qualities, that was easily hidden behind a few shallow self deprecating jokes. That's all I knew, that's all I know; how to make people laugh at me. But there is a certain power in being the one who causes joy, even shallow joy. I could give you a moment of complete bliss; stupid, meaningless bliss and I can take it away just as quickly with a single word, sometimes even less.
For two years I was a fraud and recovering.
I was carefree. I was careless. I was deaf. I was blissful.
I forgot to measure the amount of shallow joy to use, and it started to manipulate my own perception. For a time I thought all was well, I was happy now. The bitterness had passed. But slowly I realized that it had not passed. It was still there, waiting. Waiting for me to slip, to trip, to fall. I fought hard, and won a few battles. But there were some loses, big losses. Some to the point where I wanted to retreat far back so that eventually it becomes a surrender.
For one year I was aware and conscious.
I could taste the sweet lies I told myself. I could feel the grasp of idiocy that was on my mind.
My ears could hear and my eyes could see. Suddenly I understand so much more about myself.
And all I want to do is crawl into a hole, close my eyes, and scream.
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I want to start a series of character analyses. This is the first. Enjoy. 
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  • Mood: Tired
  • Eating: cereal
okay....I know I have a track record for continuously changing my plans, or not going through with my cosplay plans...
but since I bought two wigs ( white and red wigs) so ...they changed again....ehehe....
before the summer:
2014:
Kaonashi-spirited away
Rosiel-Angel Sanctuary
end of 2014/beginning of 2015:
fem. Jack-Rise of the Guardians
Jonathan Crane-Batman(film)
fem. Gaara-Naruto
2014/2015:
Poison Ivy-Batman
Fem. Jason Todd ( red hood version)-Batman
Scarecrow-arkham asylum
Dark Elsa-Frozen
Black outfit version Clare-Claymore
Fem. Darkrai Gijinka- pokemon
2016:
Selene-Underworld film series.
Lady Loki-Thor comics
Lady Loki ( my own design)-Thor comics

yep..for now these are my plans...probably going to add more characters as I decide...

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I have many random interests so my favorites has a huge range of different subjects....I post up drawings when I draw something decent, and post up poems when I feel overwhelmed so they can be a bit sporadic...
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From every single one of us here at DreamsOverRealityPro, thank you so SO much for the favourite, it is truly appreciated! ^.^

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Nevermind1391 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you so much for the faves! ^_^
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PsychoticLaughter Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
no prob^_^
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moonflower20000 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch, I really appreciate it :iconarigatouplz:
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PsychoticLaughter Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thanks for the llama, did you enjoy today's after school meeting?
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